Love for the X,Y,Z Generation…

“Love” is a that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own…Jealousy is a disease, love is a healthy condition. The immature mind often mistakes one for the other, or assumes that the greater the love, the greater the jealousy”  ~ Robert A. Heinlein

I find myself here on a kind of lonely night, waiting for my bf to get home from work and listening to Ella Fitzgerald’s Misty.  What a voice.. I sometimes believe I was born in the wrong generation.  I wish love like that she speaks of still existed as frequently in the world as it did back then.  It makes me wonder what it would be like to live in a world without social media, porn so freely accessed by anyone, and the general ability to flirt/cheat on your significant other.  The days when your partner would go to work for their 8 hours, and come home to the family.  They would share their day with one another over a home cooked meal at the dinner table without the interuption of cell phones or television shows.  The kids would play outside, and come in with scuffed knees or grass stains.  Those are the things I grew up imagining would be my life.  Well not quite THAT old school, but I always wondered what life would be like for me when I was this age.  in no way would I have assumed life at 36 would find me divorced and facing the remarriage of my ex husband to his current girlfriend.  A rocky relationship of my own, which I am desperately trying to salvage and band-aid until we can heal from indiscretions.  I find myself in this downward spiral some days both due to physical health and emotional a lot more as of late.  Perhaps, one day, I will be able to look back on this rocky time and find that it was just another speed bump in the road of life, and a lesson learned that I can laugh at.. Perhaps.. Only time will tell..

Namaste.